Today is Day 24 of my Whole30. I wish I could say I am feeling absolutely fantastic like I typically am days 20-30, but in reality, grief is taking over my typical tiger blood feelings.
It’s been a rough weekend/week for me. Friday, I get the news my Grandfather passed. Saturday, we get news that my boyfriend’s relative passed, and we went out of town Sunday – Monday. Tuesday I went into work and explained what happened, and was granted bereavement for the rest of the week. Wednesday I go to the gym, and get news that one of the dogs that I loved dearly also passed. What is it with this week? How much grief can a girl deal with?
This is definitely impacting how I meal prep. It is hard for me to find the motivation to determine what I want to make as recipes, and then make my grocery list, shop, and prep. My hardest part is coming up with the ideas for meals and recipes, usually once I have a list and know what I’m going to make, it is smooth sailing from there. I guess most of my brain capacity has been commanded by grief.
I am fortunate that the gym I go to has a cafe that is capable of making a Whole30 meal, which is what I had for breakfast on Wednesday. Tuesday was a hard day eating wise for me since I just came back from out of town, had to explain what happened to my coworkers, and then take Benji to puppy training class. I was really crossing my fingers that Cub Foods had a “Just Bare” rotisserie chicken left over for me. However, by the time I got there, around 7:30pm, there wasn’t a single rotisserie chicken left. I felt a little crushed. I did decide just to grab a few chicken breast fillets and grill them at home on my little grill pan, and toss with buffalo and ranch (whole30 compliant, of course).
It’s times like these that make Whole30, even more hard. Whole30 is definitely hard to begin with, but when you had layers and layers of stress onto it, it can guide you off a cliff. Today, I am fully aware of what is happening. I guess I was always aware of what was happening but I was just letting it happen the past few days… However, today is different. I will be figuring out a meal plan, I will be grocery shopping, and I will be setting myself up for success. It’s 100% okay that I am feeling grief, but something that will help me cope and make me feel better, is fueling my body with nutrient dense foods.
Plus, I need to feed my body to keep crushing my goals at the gym. Below I’ll post a few videos from Wednesday. This probably isn’t the type of post you’re expecting, usually the last week of Whole30 is more of “oh I feel so absolutely great, here are all of my non-scale victories, everyone I know and their Mom should do a Whole30!”
I try to be as honest and consistent as possible with my posts. I pour my heart out into these and I explain exactly what I am going through. And again, I would like to thank you so much for reading. I am honored you spent time to understand what I am going through.
And now, Wednesday’s Workout Videos:
My last post was absolutely accurate, this is what keeps me, me. If I wasn’t working out, I would not be in a good headspace for sure.
That’s it for today, have a wonderful day.